容忍的人其实并不笨..

Thursday, July 23

Finally back to bloggin.. thanks to those who were concerned.. i was admitted to hospital on monday afternoon.. BUT I DID NOT COMMIT SUICIDE..
here's wat happened:

i went out alone on sun night.. didnt want to stay at hm.. super emo.. went to changi airport then sat down alone lookin at ppl walkin to and fro.. started to feel sian after one hr den headed to east coast.. sat down at mac for a few hours readin all his previous sms.. feelin really damn upset.. even got disturbed by a butch.. tink she wanted to befriend me or sth but i couldnt be bothered.. after a few hours, butt started to ache after all the sittin.. so i walked to the seaside.. found a bench n sat there until fell aslp.. on n off woke up n dozed off..

n so i stayed at east coast until 7+ in the mornin.. walked all the way back to parkway n jus boarded any bus tat came along.. it brought me to amk interchange.. seriously for the whole night i didnt hav plan on where to go or wat to do.. my mind was blank.. sat at interchange for an hour tinkin of wat to do next.. couldnt tink of any idea.. so i started to walk again.. walked for a few hours without restin.. in the end i realised i had actually covered the whole of amk, from ave 1 to 10..

i wasn't crazy.. i jus needed sometime alone to tink over lots of stuff.. after all the walkin n sweatin under the hot sun, not eatin n drinkin since sunday afternoon.. felt a sudden pain in the chest n i collapsed. lucky for me a kind lady helped me up n found a cab for me.. i then headed to hospital n had to stayed overnight for observation..

hav been feelin better after these few days of continuous thinkin n restin.. though there are stil many confusions n dilemmas in my mind.. thanks to lin n cynn for droppin me a visit durin my stay.. n also to belle for the black chicken herbal soup.. sorry if i've been ignorin any of u durin the past week.. been emotionally unstable..

i need to pick myself up again..

some random pics:
sunrise or sunset?